A new beginning

So I've been away for awhile. I had lots of doctor appointments to go to for my health. This included open heart surgery, which I did last week. So now that after being at the hospital three different times in a week, I had a lot of time to think and reflect on my life. I decided I want to make some changes and strive to be better. I want to be a better person, by treating not only others better, but myself as well.

I'm striving to be a better wife. I have to remember to hold myself at times or not remark back unkindly. I love my husband with all my heart, but I could treat him better. I could listen to him more, do things for him, remind him that I love him and keep in mind that we don't speak the same love language. DP is so good to me. While I worked full time , he's been doing studies plus keeping up with the house, which is such a chore. He is also trying to find a job on top of what's already on his plate, and sometimes I forget that I'm taking it for granted. I need to consider his wants, desires and goals, when making decisions.

My mom is another person who I am striving to be better towards. She's open up her home and heart to us, and I'm in such debt to her for that. She has been such a blessing in our lives that we take for granted, not realizing all that she has sacrificed for us. She sacrificed for me as a child, and now as an adult, when I shouldn't have to rely on her so much, but I do appreciate all she has done.

I need to take better care of myself and treat myself better. I know it's a late start to the new year, but it's a new beginning for us as a couple, and me as an individual. After having this surgery, seems like a good time to start. It was a major step in our goals that puts us ahead in some ways, behind in others, but we weren't sure if we'd make it out of the woods. WE DID IT! I decided to try and take care of myself better physically with exercise (which I should be able to do when healed) and eating habits, emotionally by being more open and communicating better with DP, and mentally by setting realistic and achievable short and long term goals for myself.

I have always been and will always be a planner. Of course I ended up marrying my opposite, so we find it difficult to set goals, because I'm always on a timeline, which he's never on. So I hope to be a better person and work on things better with my love.