Life's blessings

First, I just want to say that I love the measuring spoons with the measurements of a "tad, dash, pinch, smidgen, and drop." I think they are just adorable!

Life has so many blessings, and God is so good to us. His timing is perfect, even if we don't know, or realize it at the time. Anyway, I just wanted to say that He loves us, He hears us, and he is oh so good to us. His timing has always been, and will always be perfect. I'm so thankful for my husband. I prayed for him, and sure enough, He gave me the best man, who loves me dearly and shows me just a smidgen of what God's love for me is like. I'm so thankful for my mother, who is an amazing friend, She loves me unconditionally, and accepts me for who I am, just like God does. I have amazing friends, who like to be with me, not with the me who will only go out after the make-up's on, not with the me, who sits quietly in places without giving an opinion. They love me for I am beautiful without the make-up, for when I'm quiet, yet can't seem to keep my mouth shut at other times. These are examples of God and how He loves me for....wait for it....ME!!!

I see how God looks down and smiles on us...I do this at work with the kids I work with. I can't help but smile at them, help them up when they fall down, comfort them and wipe away the tears. I love seeing them learn and discover...can you imagine what it's like for God to see this with us? Maybe just a smidgen? We're still learning everyday and discovering. How cool is that!?!

Anyway, food for thought...haha...get it? I start with measuring spoons and end with food...I must be hungry or something.

I have come up with a solution!!!

So last time I talked about my dilemma, but before I say this, I just wanted to say congratulation to that amazing woman I talked about who's pregnant. She made it to nine weeks, which is farther than she made it last time, so I'm sending her sticky dust, along with thoughts, hopes and prayers for the rest of her happy and healthy nine months.

Now back to my dilemma, or should I say Our Solution. That's right my husband, who cares so much about me, and I talked out options. We both loved that we married, we love each other very much; however, we both have things that we need to take care of on our own. This will hopefully get us out of this state! So I'm looking at going back to my hometown once the school year's over. I love my husband, he's so good to me. Anyway, talk to you soon!

What do you hope for?

So I was taking to someone about life. Then they asked me, "What do you hope for Kendra?"

This was my response:

"I'm hoping that I end up happy, with a loving family. I hope to not hurt anyone in the process. I hope my mom will be understanding. I hope no one gets mad at me, or that I get anyone upset...I hope I'm able to achieve my dreams, and that my future family is happy.

"I hope that whoever he is, will stand beside me, and I beside him. We'll be best friends, and can tell each other anything, knowing the other will be supportive."

This was on December 4...a day later I was reading two different blogs from to very different women, and yet I was jealous of both of them. One of which is a very nice, woman. She has a loving husband, and a dog. Why am I jealous of her? Because she's eight and a half weeks pregnant. I have baby fever so bad. I want so much to be pregnant and have a baby. The other woman is the opposite to say the least. She's happily married, and their "baby" is a rabbit named Toffee. She doesn't have baby fever, and never wanted to be the stay at home mom. What she does have is a husband, who's willing to be the stay at home dad, move across the country, and does things around the house cause he can.

I love my husband quite dearly, but I also love the idea of having a baby, of being pregnant, and being the stay at home mom. I don't want to choose between them though. I've hit a dilemma, and I don't know how to get out of it...