What do you hope for?

So I was taking to someone about life. Then they asked me, "What do you hope for Kendra?"

This was my response:

"I'm hoping that I end up happy, with a loving family. I hope to not hurt anyone in the process. I hope my mom will be understanding. I hope no one gets mad at me, or that I get anyone upset...I hope I'm able to achieve my dreams, and that my future family is happy.

"I hope that whoever he is, will stand beside me, and I beside him. We'll be best friends, and can tell each other anything, knowing the other will be supportive."

This was on December 4...a day later I was reading two different blogs from to very different women, and yet I was jealous of both of them. One of which is a very nice, woman. She has a loving husband, and a dog. Why am I jealous of her? Because she's eight and a half weeks pregnant. I have baby fever so bad. I want so much to be pregnant and have a baby. The other woman is the opposite to say the least. She's happily married, and their "baby" is a rabbit named Toffee. She doesn't have baby fever, and never wanted to be the stay at home mom. What she does have is a husband, who's willing to be the stay at home dad, move across the country, and does things around the house cause he can.

I love my husband quite dearly, but I also love the idea of having a baby, of being pregnant, and being the stay at home mom. I don't want to choose between them though. I've hit a dilemma, and I don't know how to get out of it...